By Erin Mullen
Dear Gap Time,
Why is it that when God makes a promise or points towards an event, you step in and fill up the space between now and then like you have nothing better to do?
Gap Time, could you please hurry it up? Do you really have to put time between now and the important things in my life? Could you at least send a memo stating your estimate duration time? Your beginning seems to come without any announcement, yet you come like an uninvited houseguest with no departure date. You are an unyielding foe to my calendar. You are slow and silent.
It feels like you have kicked off your shoes and decided to binge watch 19 seasons of you favorite drama series. Sometimes waiting on you feels like watching water come to a boil, but the stove was never turned on.
It seems like you are a busy tool used in this game called Life. Your turn seems to come back around too often. Monopolizing, yet giving no clues. I’m sorry, you are just trouble. Do you ever get a Go to Jail card?
In your line of work do you hang your hat at the end of the day with great purpose or do you get bored or frustrated with your pushy clients. Frankly, you seem to just be waiting around for the important stuff to walk on to life’s stage.
When the curtain closes, does your name get mentioned in the rolling credits at the end of this chaotic production? Are you an extra? An understudy? Or just a stagehand with the sweeper broom?
I do not understand you. I might never totally understand you. But you keep showing up: in dating, in engagement, in pregnancy, in the long days of parenting, in times of pruning, in times of grief, in victories over strongholds… and even in every book of the Bible.
Just to name a few…
- God told Noah to build an ark and then 100 years later the flood comes crashing.
- Abraham was promised an innumerable lineage at 75 years old and 25 years later his first heir was born.
- Joseph was shown visions at age 17 that would not be fulfilled for 20 years. Plus he did not know that he would be thrown in a pit, sold as a slave, falsely imprisoned, and forgotten for 2 years before rising to a powerful position that would save his family from starvation and move them to a place where they could grow in number.
- Over 400 years of silence sat between the words of the prophets and the time of the Messiah arrives.
- Christ was born and 30 years later He began His ministry.
- And now we have the New Covenant and Salvation, but the work of sanctification takes a lifetime.
Though this list is short and your activity too much to compile, you cannot be ignored. God used you throughout history to accomplish great and mighty things. God has used you in the present to bring about Christ-likeness in my inmost parts. God continues to use you in ways that are not my own.
Gap Time, you are often an unwanted messenger, but a patient teacher all the same. You provide a place for searching to happen, for patience to manifest, for seeds of hope to be longed for.
If the Holy Spirit can use YOU (of all things) then I am willing to take the journey and learn. If waiting with you is what is necessary to see the promise of the Lord fulfilled in my life, it is worth it. Whether there is peace and clarity in this life, your silence does not mean the inactivity of the Lord.
If the Lord decides you and I need some time to sit and learn together, I will accept that invitation and bring the popcorn. Maybe soon, Gap Time, we will be like old friends. No words needed, but fully understood.
Wearied and Waiting
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
Neither are your ways my ways,”
Declares the LORD.
The Lord is good to those who wait for him,
to the soul who seeks him.
It is good the one should wait quietly
for the salvation of the Lord.
Psalm 5:3 (AMP)
In the morning, O Lord, You will hear my voice;
In the morning I will prepare [a prayer and a sacrifice] for You
and watch and wait [for You to speak to my heart].
Psalm 27:14 (AMP)
Wait for and confidently expect the LORD;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for and confidently expect the LORD.
Erin Mullen is the wife of her college sweetheart, James, and the mother of three beautiful and energetic preschoolers, Addison, Levi, and London. She is a stay-at-home mom who is daily walking through the ups and downs of discipling her children in the fear and knowledge of the Lord. She has taught violin for 11 years, led small groups in her church’s women’s ministry, served on the leadership team for her church’s satellite campus, and played weekly in the worship band. Most people do not know that she is also a very talented and creative wedding florist and photographer. She and her family have recently relocated from Memphis, TN to Birmingham, AL where they are working through what life in a new city brings. One of the things she looks forward to the most about being in a new city is the opportunity to disciple a new group of ladies through chronological Bible study. She experiences no greater joy than digging in and processing through the depth God's Word brings to a believer's life.