Recently, instead of easing into 2015, I felt like a big, fat bully pushed me into the deep end of a pool.
It was surprise after surprise (don’t you just love surprises!). Deadline after deadline. Missing deadline after deadline…clients waiting. Staff frustrated.
I’m a home school mom this year. In addition to surprises and the missed deadlines, I also realized I dropped the ball on TWO really BIG assignments for my son’s co-op—a science fair project and ordering his books for the second semester. How did I forget something as basic as ordering books? I totally forgot over Christmas. He went to class Monday without books and without the science project.
NOT one of my finer moments. Feeling like at any time someone was going to rush out and award me with “Worst Mom of the Year,” feelings of failure and doubt began to creep in. I was on the verge of being overwhelmed.
On Wednesday, I learned that I’d need four…let me say it again…FOUR major dental surgeries in the coming year. The first of which is in February. By God’s grace my husband didn’t freak out when he heard the cost.
On Thursday morning, when it was 8 degrees outside, I woke up cold—very cold. Needless to say, when I went to turn up the heat, I realized the upstairs heating unit decided it was overwhelmed and quit!
This made me want to quit. But I couldn’t. I was already too far behind. The monthly luncheon invitation (for Knowing God Ministries) had yet to go out.
So when I went to send the invitation, it WOULD NOT send. I spent over an hour on the phone trying to get it remedied only to learn it would be back up “in the next week.” The server was down.
Finally over the weekend my frustration peaked when a bad word came out of my mouth aimed directly at both of my teenage children! (If you’re appalled at this confession, you’re reading the wrong woman’s blog—you’ll have to find Mrs. Perfect elsewhere.)
Immediately, I felt like that mom. You know, the worst version of yourself and the mom you swore you would never be. I felt horrible. In the midst of this, the enemy reminded me, “You are the leader of a Women’s MINISTRY! You’re not able to do ANYTHING well.” I heard it in my ear.
I was totally overwhelmed. Tears began to quietly fall. I don’t think my husband knew what to do with me. I was at a loss for words when he sweetly asked.
Despite these totally overwhelming feelings, I knew the remedy. (And it wasn’t the chocolate I’ve all but given up to lose the added “warmth” I acquired during the holidays.)
I NEEDED MORE OF JESUS.
I share all of this to say, you TOO may feel overwhelmed.
We need to fix our eyes on the ONE Who is ABLE to make all grace abound to us.
As I sat with the Lord, re-studying His promises, I was different. My heart lifted; I was no longer sinking in condemnation.
I know God’s grace is sufficient. I know HE will provide the wisdom, the energy, and focus I need ONE DAY at a time. He’ll do it for you too.
The following verses have been in my Prayer Journal since 2007. I STILL refer back to this list. And oh the comfort I receive from the truth of Who God is.
I encourage you to print off today’s Scriptures. Store them in a place like your Prayer Journal (Praise Section). Trust me, you’ll want to refer back to them in the days, months, and years to come.
You may also want to choose one passage for the day and ponder it; meditate on it; say it as you drive down the road. YES, I was quoting Ephesians 3:20 while driving down the road the other day. It was therapeutic. It will be for you as well!
God is ABLE.
Now to Him who is ABLE to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us.
2 Corinthians 9:8
God is ABLE to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all you need, you will abound in every good work.
2 Timothy 1:12
Yet I am not ashamed, because I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that He is ABLE to guard what I have entrusted to Him for that day.
God is ABLE to aid those who are tempted.
Jesus is ABLE, once and forever, to save those who come to God through Him. He lives forever to intercede on their behalf.
To Him who is ABLE to keep you from falling and to present you before His glorious presence without fault and with great joy.
Nothing is too big for our God. He’s never caught off guard. Nothing you or I could ever do will change God’s love for us. Be encouraged sweet friend, whatever may trouble our hearts today, our God is ABLE!
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