These past few months of transition (yet again—fourth move in five years) to a new city, state, and home brought expected and unexpected turns. I expected the search for a new faith family would take time. I expected to have to show grace to my kids through their rollercoaster of emotions. I expected to feel unnoticed when shopping for groceries and going to parent meetings. I have been there. I have walked that season before and knew that time would eventually bring friendships, comfort, and connection in this new land the Lord has led us to this year.
What I did not expect was His silence. It brought questions. It brought searching. It brought disappointment. Like Moses desired in Exodus 33:15, “If Your Presence will not go with me, do not bring us up from here.” I only wanted to be where His Presence rested.
It is hard to put into words how the Presence of the Lord surrounds our daily lives.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
So are My ways higher than your ways
And My thoughts higher than your thoughts.Isaiah 55:9
Parenting three elementary school age children is draining to say the least. If we are willing (and even sometimes when we are not), the promise of the Lord’s Presence (Exodus 3:12) builds in us a desperate dependence on the presence of God. So how do I lead these little ones when His silence is almost deafening?
What I slowly began to realize was that while I had EARS that were ready to HEAR from heaven, the Lord wanted me to have EYES that would SEE His activity here on earth.
Parenting in the silence became a job of pointing out all the Lord was doing on our behalf. He was answering prayers. Even prayers we had forgotten or dismissed. He was there. Present. Active. Moving.
In His loving kindness, He was taking care of us in the quiet. He was bringing provision even when we had not recognized it yet.
As a mom, I need to guide them with honest disclosure about my walk with the Lord. During the highs and the lows. During the times of clear, unmistakable direction. And during the times of His still activity.
With MY MOUTH I must put into words the movement of His Presence to my children. Declaring His grace in planting us near generous neighbors who have quickly become friends. Putting us among believers both young in the faith and ones deep in their love for His Word. Shining light on how kind the Lord has been to give them other kids to play with in the neighborhood.
Teaching gratitude in the silence. Teaching trust despite our feelings. Teaching that silence does not mean inactivity on the part of our God.
In a culture of rushing and instant answers, I have to ask, Could the silence of the Lord be what the Presence of the Prince of Peace feels like? Could His silence be my indicator to REST in Him?
The role of parenting comes with a weight that must be rolled over to the Lord. With a voice that chooses to trust His character and without guilt, we must honestly share our personal journey of sanctification with our children. It is not ours to keep to ourselves. It is ours to use for His glory in every moment.
“Return to the battle again, no longer trusting in the false and insufficient human resources which so foolishly we had taken into the battle, but now trusting in the limitless resources of our risen Lord.”Alan Redpath
You are loved, equipped, and never alone. Even in silence the Lord is Present.
Erin Mullen is the wife of her college sweetheart, James, and the mother of three beautiful and energetic preschoolers, Addison, Levi, and London. She is a stay-at-home mom who is daily walking through the ups and downs of discipling her children in the fear and knowledge of the Lord. She has taught violin for 11 years, led small groups in her church’s women’s ministry, served on the leadership team for her church’s satellite campus, and played weekly in the worship band. Most people do not know that she is also a very talented and creative wedding florist and photographer. She and her family have recently relocated from Memphis, TN to Birmingham, AL where they are working through what life in a new city brings. One of the things she looks forward to the most about being in a new city is the opportunity to disciple a new group of ladies through chronological Bible study. She experiences no greater joy than digging in and processing through the depth God's Word brings to a believer's life.