It was August 6th of 2000 when late that evening, unable to sleep, I found myself kneeling before the chair in my bedroom crying out to the Lord. “God,
My Heavenly Father had not promised me that my husband would be healed, but He had reassured me He is enough. He is able to meet my every need.
My husband, Steve, had been diagnosed the week before with Myasthenia Gravis. It is an autoimmune disease that causes extreme muscle weakness and fatigue. He was undergoing a thymectomy the next day. This surgery is much like open-heart surgery. The sternum is severed to remove the thymus gland, which in my husband’s case was enlarged and contained a tumor. He had grown increasingly weak and was experiencing double vision. One eyelid was closing (ptosis) to eliminate the blurred vision. We were reeling from the symptoms and subsequent diagnosis. They seemed to come out of nowhere on my otherwise extremely strong and healthy, 42-year-old, pastor husband.
Steve recovered from the surgery and the tumor was benign. We began the grueling process of finding medications and dosages that would control the symptoms, and hopefully send his disease into remission. There were severe digestive issues due to the strong medications, sleepless nights and a reoccurrence of childhood asthma. After a trip to the emergency room on the way to a football game, his breathing difficulties were finally relieved.
As you know, diseases don’t announce their arrival and they don’t usually choose convenient times. Our son, and oldest child, was a senior in high school. His three sisters ranged from an 8th grader to a 6th grader, and our youngest who was in the 3rd grade.
Life doesn’t stop when illness strikes.
Children still go to school and extracurricular activities. As the wife and mother, I was trying to keep the household running smoothly, all while protecting our children and keeping life as “normal” as possible.
I began baking homemade bread and seeking out organic ingredients before they were as readily available as they are now. Life as we had known it became increasingly complicated. We continued to pray for healing, and we did all we knew to do to help his body recover.
It has been almost 17 years since that surgery and diagnosis. Steve still has Myasthenia Gravis. We have found our God to be the “I Am” He reminded me He was and is.
When my husband was too weak to preach, or even walk from his truck to the church, God would fill him with supernatural power when he stood behind the pulpit to preach. Today, there are times we almost forget he has the disease, except for the daily regimen of medications. He still must be careful about getting overheated or overly stressed – which we have laughed about since he is a pastor in Memphis, Tennessee (whose summers make you think you are in a sauna).
Those who have walked more physically challenging paths than we have bear witness to the fact that suffering reveals the foundation upon which we have built our lives.
As Joni Eareckson Tada shared, “When suffering sandblasts us to the core, the true stuff of which we are made is revealed. Suffering lobs a hand-grenade into our self-centeredness, blasting our soul bare—but then, we can be better bonded to the Savior. Our afflictions have helped make us holy. And we are never more like Christ—never more filled with His joy, peace, and power—than when sin is uprooted from our lives.”
God is faithful! He is good and He only does good. He is always at work conforming us to the image of His dear Son.
What are you facing? If you live long enough, either you or someone you love will face a disease or a difficult doctor’s diagnosis. How will you deal with it? I can tell you from personal experience that the Lord is faithful and He is able! Lean in on Him and allow Him to meet your every need.
God’s Word is true: “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness” (2 Cor. 12:9). His power has been apparent in my husband’s life. His power has been evident in mine, as I have walked this journey alongside him.
What we have learned of His faithfulness, we would not have known without this suffering.
Do you love Him? Trust Him! Regardless of what you are facing. He will not leave you nor forsake you. The depth of your experience and knowledge of Him will grow, far exceeding your greatest imagination or expectation!
Donna and her husband, Steve, have four children and also have the privilege of being “Papaw” and “Nonna” to twelve sweet grandchildren. She is a pastor’s wife, Bible teacher, author of four books (Leaving Ordinary: Encounter God Through Extraordinary Prayer, Seated: Living From Our Position in Christ, There’s Gotta Be More, and Choose Wisely, Live Fully: Lessons from Wisdom and Folly, The Two Women of Proverbs) and editor of A Daily Women’s Devotional. She is a disciple maker who fervently desires to see the lives of women transformed as they encounter God through His Word and prayer. Embracing God's missional calling on her life, Donna mobilizes women to practically live out their faith through both inner city and international efforts.
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